memo216

Under war, the more ambivalence there is about pursuing conformity, the more reluctant they are. Femininity in a woman, like Eva Braun, is too advocating. What makes them so? Escaping from the agony brings too much more pain, I guess. In fact, I do not have experience on the battlefield. What is adequate or satisfactory with the entity between ecstasy in an extreme condition and anything suicidal as an action? Everyone is dancing like a paranoiac. There is a dying attitude, but there is no dying message. Suicide solution takes it for granted until the moment of death.

（戦時下において悦楽を求める様態程能天気に見えるものは無い。エヴァ・ブラウンの様な女性における女性性は眼下余り有る。何が人々をそうさせるのか？快楽へ逃げれば余計に苦しい事は分かり切っているだろう。実際のところ、私は戦地へ行った経験を持たない。極限状態での快楽と行為としての自殺の間に佇むものは？どいつもこいつもパラノイアックに踊ってやがる。死に様というのは在るだろうが、死に方などというものは無い。自殺というのは、死の瞬間までが楽しいのである。）

4:35 PM 9/5/2025




Giorgio Armani died. I have poor eyesight, and I have worn Armani glasses made in Italy for a generation. This opportunity became a good reason for recognizing what the death of a human was. I usually do not belong to the sentiment like this, but another's death is so astonishing for me. In other words, I am seldom interested in the death of my own. Sometimes I deeply feel grief at another's death, but I think that there should be no person who becomes sad by my death. When I imagine the death of my own, I scarcely fall into something bitter emotion or sadness. Until now, I have lived so that, or I identify my life so that. At least in that sense, I recognize that I am healthy, mentally and physically, regardless of attributing my life expectancy to anything. Death is not conceptualized but contextualized. It is not a dead end. It is not salvation or deliverance from catastrophe. Every human leads a succession of daily lives and is fading away. Please rest in peace.