There is nothing but unpleasant things as well as others' will against the concept of the self. If I have to say anything, I say, "Do not make me being born." Why do you recognize my body and myself? That's not productive, I say. Extremely unpleasant. I do not have an experience of hoping for becoming a parent. Awful. I think that demanding another by the will of the self and being demanded by another's self are just a product of hatred. That phenomenon literally makes me sick to my stomach. Therefore, liquidity is enough to be utilized. I hope that people can understand nonsense of the concept of opportunity cost and they are capable of managing society as economically as possible. Osamu Dazai, a famous Japanese novelist, said something similar, and I love the people of profound resignation. They are not refusing. ...Resignation, as quiet? I explain below, as well as an adjective to excuse, permanently, that it makes people spontaneous. Also it is different from absolution after confession. I think of it as the denial against reproduction. I hope for myself being ugly. Whoever does not take me, with abstracting the idea of despair away, of course, and that is a pleasure of committing suicide by no means, to be concerned. Thus, I do not want to be born again. Life is suffering, no way. ...Conceptualization like this makes the society of human beings developed. I do not doubt this. Who can defy humans' homeostasis? What a developmental disorder with event studies, making people feel so awful? That's insane. It causes fanatic actions of green-eyed monsters with insanity by jealousy. This is phenomenal. There is no evil more than "opportunity cost" or possessiveness between male and female. So, I hate the notion of family, the notion of relationship between a man and a woman, the notion of existentiality of the self, as itself, and so on at all. I have a motive.
By John Maynard Keynes,
Even apart from the instability due to speculation, there is the instability due to the characteristic of human nature that a large proportion of our positive activities depend on spontaneous optimism rather than on a mathematical expectation, whether moral or hedonistic or economic. Most, probably, of our decisions to do something positive, the full consequences of which will be drawn out over many days to come, can only be taken as a result of animal spirits — of a spontaneous urge to action rather than inaction, and not as the outcome of a weighted average of quantitative benefits multiplied by quantitative probabilities.
(The General Theory, Chapter 12, Section VII, p. 161–162 in most editions)
Thus if the animal spirits are dimmed and the spontaneous optimism falters, leaving us to depend on nothing but a mathematical expectation, enterprise will fade and die; — though fears of loss may have a basis no more reasonable than hopes of profit had before.
(他人の自己に対する意志程不快なものは無い。私の、もし来世における願いが在るとしたらば、「二度と生まれません様に」である。何故他人の意志で自己や自己の肉体が生産されなければ為らないのか。不愉快極まりない。私は自分が人の親に為りたいと思った事も無い。気持ち悪い。私は、自己の意志で他人を需要したり他人の意志で自己が需要されたりするのが大嫌いである。吐き気がする。然るに、お金というのは便利な道具である。私は、人々が機会費用などといったフェイクに誤魔化されず、健全に経済社会を営んでいるのが好きだ。太宰治も似た様な事を言っていたが、私は諦念の民を愛している。彼らは拒まない。…諦念?以下説明するものは、そう形容して妥当であるのかどうか断言出来無いが、それは人々を健常化させる。キリスト教の「ゆるし」とも少し違う。…それは、生殖というものに対する否定ではないかと考えている。私は、自分が醜男である方が楽である。誰からも省みられず、絶望の概念など捨象された内、為す術無く自殺へと追い込まれる様程を幸せだと思っている。そして二度と生まれたく無い。人生など苦痛有り余る。…こういった感慨が、人の社会を発展させて来たのだと、私は疑っていない。誰が人の恒常性を否定出来るものか。一体誰が発達障害患者の様に陳奇新規な「出来事」で幸せを感じると云うのか?狂ってる。それが嫉妬に狂った者の凶行を生み出すのだ。これは現象的な問題である。オスとメスの間の所有欲程邪悪なものは無い。だから、私は、家族というものも男女の関係自体も自己が存在している事もその因と為っているものも全て憎悪の対象である。)
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